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10:58pm 29/08/2007
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
since this community is dead...

what do you guys think we should do with it?
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 theheartmatters - (hardchoices)
01:13pm 12/01/2007
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
Music Journalism...

for a girl who loves music and writing.

Isn't it amazing how there's a career for everyone?

'cause being a music major made me depressed...there was something missing.

So far, I'm enjoying the Journalism department.

And then someone said Music Journalism...
I'd adore that.
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let's talk about love
 theheartmatters - (hardchoices)
11:37pm 09/12/2006
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
Oh gosh...love. What is love? Look at what people think of when they think of "the one"...how perfect and ideal they are. Just look at the materialistic qualities and the superficiality of it all. I mean, come on...look at Romeo and Juliet. They died...for each other. Some might argue that that's not how love is supposed to be, and in a way they would be right. Love shouldn't be so limited and judged, but respected. Is that how life works? No. It's not, and it's never going to be. But Romeo...he killed himself because he thought he'd lost Juliet...and if she didn't wanna live then neither did he. Maybe someone shouldn't be your entire universe in theory, but it sure is nice to have someone who can keep you together when you lose everything else....because everything else that we consider to matter so much can be gone in a heartbeat. That's love. When someone gets inside your veins and makes you so happy and so hurt that it feels like you're bleeding endlessly and yearning for some kind of hope...that you really do have if you just give in...that's love. When someone comes in...and changes your entire universe...that's love. When you'd die for someone...really die...that's love. When you'd rather die than be without them, that's love. Don't you ever take it out of context. It's power is what makes it eternal.
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 theheartmatters - (hardchoices)
11:26am 03/10/2006
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
Mike!-He doesn't need his name up in lights
He just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the mic
He feels so unlike everybody else, alone
In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know him
But fuck em, he knows the code
It's not about the salary
It's all about reality and making some noise
Makin the story - makin sure his clique stays up
That means when he puts it down Tak's pickin it up! let's go!

Who the hell is he anyway?
He never really talks much
Never concerned with status but still leavin them star struck
Humbled through opportunities given to him despite the fact
That many misjudge him because he makes a livin from writin raps
Put it together himself, now the picture connects
Never askin for someone's help, to get some respect
He's only focused on what he wrote, his will is beyond reach
And now when it all unfolds, the skill of an artist

s is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

It's just twenty percent skill
Eighty percent fear
Be one hundred percent clear cause Ryu is ill
Who would've thought that he'd be the one to set the west in flames
And I heard him wreckin with The Crystal Method, "Name Of The Game"
Came back dropped Megadef, took em to church
I like bleach man, why you have the stupidest verse?
This dude is the truth, now everybody be givin him guest spots
His stock's through the roof I heard he fuckin with S. Dot!

They call him Ryu The Sick
And he's spittin fire with Mike
Got him out the dryer he's hot
Found him in Fort Minor with Tak
Been a fuckin annihilist porcupine
He's a prick, he's a cock
The type woman want to be with, and rappers hope he get shot
Eight years in the makin, patiently waitin to blow
Now the record with Shinoda's takin over the globe
He's got a partner in crime, his shit is equally dope
You wont believe the kind of shit that comes out of this kid's throat

Tak! - He's not your everyday on the block
He knows how to work with what he's got
Makin his way to the top
People think its a common owners name
People keep askin him was it given at birth
Or does it stand for an acronym?
No he's livin proof, Got him rockin the booth
He'll get you buzzin quicker than a shot of vodka with juice
Him and his crew are known around as one of the best
Dedicated to what they doin give a hundred percent

Forget Mike - Nobody really knows how or why he works so hard
It seems like he's never got time
Because he writes every note and he writes every line
And I've seen him at work when that light goes on in his mind
It's like a design is written in his head every time
Before he even touches a key or speaks in a rhyme
And those motherfuckers he runs with, those kids that he signed?
Ridiculous, without even trying, how do they do it?!
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 theheartmatters - (hardchoices)
02:05pm 16/09/2006
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
one of the communities i'm in as a "theme of the week"
would you guys be interested in having that?
it'll give you something to post about. :)
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04:04pm 11/09/2006
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
I'm pretty confused on choosing a major anymore. I actually think I'm gonna get 3 associate degrees in the next 2 years, which i don't know if i'll be able to do a whole lot with them. Associate of Arts. Associate of Fine Arts in Music Performance. Associate of Fine Arts in Music Education (because the performance and the education degree are almost exactly the same). I've never considered being a teacher in a long time either. I'd probably have to do Band, so the reason I would is because I had a crappy experience in it, so I'd try to be a good teacher in knowing what it's like to be insecure with it. I even keep thinking that I'm sitting here doing what I've always wanted when I don't give myself much of a chance to explore my options. That's the insecurity talking. Everything else is always boring to me. I might get something else to combine the music degree, but I don't know. A friend of mine is going for Music Business which seems pretty cool. I think I'm pretty scared. I'm going for a job that I'm scared I won't be good at this subject for, 'cause music is really hard. I haven't had a lot of chance to be trained in performing until now, and Friday my auditions for Madrigal/Solo was good with the sound of me singing, especially since I was sick...but my performing habits suck because I don't really know what I'm supposed to do. You'd think that I'd seen enough concerts to figure it out and make it my own...and I keep thinking if it was my own music that it'd be easier...but who knows.
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this was a lot like me as a kid
 theheartmatters - (hardchoices)
11:29am 07/09/2006
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
I'm through with standing in line
to clubs we'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
and I'm never gonna win
This life hasn't turned out
quite the way I want it to be

I want a brand new house
on an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
for ten plus me

I'll need a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet

I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me

I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free

I think I'm gonna dress my ass
with the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
blow my money for me

I'm gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair
And change my name

'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and
today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
drug dealer on speed dial
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I'm gonna sing those songs
that offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills
from a pez dispenser
When they ask why I drink all day
I'll say because I can

I'll get washed-up singers writing all my songs
Lip sync em every night so I don't get 'em wrong
Then listen to the fans tell me how damn good I am

I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name
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you just don't do this to your kids...
 theheartmatters - (hardchoices)
09:56pm 15/08/2006
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
My dad just told me something that I never, ever would want to tell my kids. How does a parent live with themself when they say to their child some of the things my father has said to me over the years? As a kid, it was that I couldn't be a singer. Now, it's also that I shouldn't major in music. And also...now it's suddenly this thing...that Dusty, when I'm approaching a one-year mark of dating him, my lovely father tells me that he is "goofy as he**" and then he goes on to say...I hope you find somebody else. Honestly, what kind of stupid crap is that? What kind of parenting is this? It's like this artificial form of adulthood that he's created...possibly what makes him happy...but I'm such a different person. And Dusty...gosh..I can't tell him. Dad told me not to, but it's not that...I can't do this to him. This baggage has to be for me to carry and me alone. Please...please...I tell him everything..but I don't want to hurt him...because it will...and it'll be my fault, no matter what anyone says. I'm on the verge of being so happy these days. I'm studying what I love...do do something I love. I have a boyfriend that loves me, and completes me, who drives me insane and comes from a different world than I. He's more of a loser than I am, but it's kind of a good thing. The other half of me? I've believed that so far. I hate having my mind messed with. It's like Romeo and Juliet, and not focusing on the romantic part, but the tragic part where the parents don't know how to be parents. Jeez..Juliet should be my nickname. More than that, though. Gosh...I gotta get out of this house and this place at some point. I've got to...for so many reasons.

<3 jade
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 theheartmatters - (hardchoices)
05:38pm 14/08/2006
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
So today was my first day of college, and the day I started fulfilling one of my lifelong dreams: Music School. I feel like I may be spoiling myself, if not overkilling myself, by having 5 music classes and 2 general studies. Blame my director for that.
I just have to say it's a great feeling...to follow your heart...and to be true to yourself, believing that there are no regrets.
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 theheartmatters - (hardchoices)
03:17pm 08/08/2006
Jessica posting in Following Your Dreams
it's amazing the feeling it gives me just to listen to music...especially music that touches my heart the right way.
that's what i wanna do.
that's my "dream"
and my parents don't even say anything about it right now.
i wonder if i should major in music performance-vocal.
i live in a family that likes money too much

what are you guys' dreams?
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